drizzle away the time

its pretty late, around two in the morning...i cannot sleep tonite, which is really no different than any other night, except the moon, though covered by the clouds and drizzle, is full...and that full moon is making sleep next to impossible...i took allergy medication earlier in the evening because an old rug i was transporting was covered in god knows what and caused incredible sneezing...that allergy medication is now making me tired, but because of the moon and my natural propensity for insomnia, the fatigue i am experiencing has merely turned me into a worthless space cadet...add to that the fact that i haven't had any alcohol for a week or two which always allows my mind to wander...you see i do not like having energy...most people seem to enjoy that feeling of being energized, but i prefer to have potential energy and not kinetic energy...consumption of alcohol saps my energy and makes me more of a miserable bastard...that is why i enjoy it so...but tonite the combo of everything i have mentioned previously has given me this crazed, energetic, floating feeling...yeah i know, most people like that too, but not me...i spend my entire existence trying to feel bland and focused...that is how i like to be...i read my last entry and was ashamed of the writing quality...throughout my formative years, my writing was criticized again and again by many cruel heartless english teachers...i knew my writing was sub-par but i felt that because i was forced to take these classes i should not have been punished for not possessing the gift of grammar...i hate figuring out where the comma should go, and keeping things in one tense, i am more concerned with ideas...i know proper grammar can make things easier to understand, but i am not really interested in making things easier to understand...i do not want people reading something i wrote and thinking about what grammatical errors i have committed...to me that is missing the point of writing something in the first place...someone's writing can be exceptional but they can be saying absolutely nothing...that being said, my writing is exceptionally flawed, and i am sorry if understanding it can be painful...i know paragraphs and commas, all those sort of things correctly placed would help, but i am too old and too lazy to try and remember all those particular rules...i am a writing slob...i think i will float up to the ceiling now and leave all you good people to your rest...my rambling has ended...see you soon...