the human condition

it sure seems like a nice morning...although afternoon has taken its foul hold on me...they are moving things out from under my nose...trying to run for the hills as quickly as their little legs will take them...mocking me and the fact that i exist in a vacuum...in outer space...it has been said that when you die you are confronted with all the horrible things you did to people and forced to experience your malevolent actions through that person...for me it won't be so bad, at least after childhood...i do not think i have caused too much harm...but for some i think it could take an eternity just to get passed this initial phase of transition...it is truly a shame how selfish and petty human beings are...always out for themselves, like a virus or plague on the earth...everyone looks to ghandi, or buddha, or jesus as what a human being is...but i disagree...i think they are exceptions to the human condition, they may not even be human at all...why do so many good people end up in jail or dead for their principles?...because they are not human, and that festering cancer of goodness is feared by the people in power who are in effect, true humans...power is important for the human, it is the essential and that is why what it means to be human is what it means to be horrible, and all a seeker of truth can do is try to be meta-human...the goal of the seeker is to unlock what few of our depraved ilk have been able to...that pure radiant goodness that in many ways is the antithesis of humanity...it is contrary to survival in the physical sense...it is almost like living in the land of the dead, where one can see the world for what it is...a world of shadowy figures clawing for every crust of bread, every handfull of change, and every saggy breast...